Howdy!

Well one more awesome friend has left the Idols house... nTsepha was voted out this week. She is going to be missed like you cant even imagine! She is such an incredible personality, such a bright light and she has become one of my closest friends..
This is a very strange experience to be part of. On the one side you have this huge TV show competition and you are surrounded by the contestants and situations that are so surreal and on the other hand these contestants become your best friends, all we have is each other! And each week someone has to go! Hectic!
Anyway Joshua's passing has been really tough for me as he was without any doubt the most selfless beautiful soul I have ever known. His laughter was testament to that! I think of him all the time and the only way I can come to terms with his death is to express myself through my performances and daily actions. I know that he is here. He has become everything, every bird, every tree and cloud, even the sunset. All I see is Joshua. I love you my brother.
Life is so much bigger than the situations we find ourselves in. This competition was larger than life but now life has become so much larger than this competition. And that reality has put me back into NOW, the place I need to be, the place we all need to be. Thank you my brother! You have healed me and taken away my illusion!
Thank you all for you amazing support! I am so overwhelmed by it all!

Until next time.. Good night!

J